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February 13th, 2013 by bkbirla

The circle of life

10 years ago. My daughter was learning how to walk. Don’t know what the kids go through in their minds in that phase. They see everybody around balancing themselves beautifully on top of 2 legs but why they are not equipped to do the same. I am sure it must be a traumatizing experience. But then learnability is something humans are known for. So I am sure when they learn it, it is an exciting moment. I still remember that when my daughter learnt it, she just could not stop. She kept running between the two sofas.

 

And now, the scenes are different. I was waiting for my parents to come from Lucknow. My father has been a little under the weather. And my Mom told me on the phone that he has been walking a little bent and with some difficulty. I had asked them to ask the airline folks for a wheelchair but when I was waiting for them at the airport, I just had a little hope. That maybe he will walk straight. After all, seeing your parents on wheel chair is not a very pleasant sight for anybody.

 

And yes, he did walk out of the arrival lounge, a little bent but still. The joy was no different.

 

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February 10th, 2013 by bkbirla

इंसानियत

सूडान के रेगिस्तान मैं
भूखे नंगे इंसान मैं
खून से लथपथ
हर सूखे हुए पथ पर
हर रोज़ मरती हूँ लेकिन
मरती नहीं हूँ मैं

अमेरिका के स्कूलों मैं
मौत के खिलोनों मैं
शिक्षक के खून मैं भींगी
बेगुनाह बच्चों की सिसकी मैं
हर रोज़ मरती हूँ लेकिन
मरती नहीं हूँ मैं

पाकिस्तान के जंगलों मैं
धर्म के दंगलों मैं
एक डरी और सहमी हुई
मलाला के स्कूल जाते वक़्त
हर रोज़ मरती हूँ लेकिन
मरती नहीं हूँ मैं

दिल्ली की बसों मैं
वहशियों के अट्टाहसों मैं
एक लोहे की नोक पे
लुटती हुई अस्मतों मैं
हर रोज़ मरती हूँ लेकिन
मरती नहीं हूँ मैं

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February 3rd, 2013 by bkbirla

वो दरख़्त

वो दरख़्त

अपनी  शाखों पे
अनजान परिंदों के
आशियाने बनाता हुआ

वो दरख़्त

एक अनजान मुसाफिर
राहों की गर्द ले के
थक कर बैठ गया
छाँव देता उस को भी

वो दरख़्त

झूमता रहता था
मदमस्त हवाओं मैं
ख़ुशी से

वो दरख़्त

आशियाँ परिंदों के
दर्द लेकिन दरख़्त का
परिंदे कुतर कुतर के
ज़ख्म देते
कतरे कतरे मैं
फिर भी मुस्कुराता

वो दरख़्त

मुसाफिर को बस
सुध थी
अपनी ही थकान की
क्या पता था उस को
कितना रोया था

वो दरख़्त

हवाओं को भी
क्या था पता
कमज़ोर था इस लिए
उसे देख झूम गया था

वो दरख़्त

बोझिल और अन्दर से कमज़ोर
खोखला और थक हुआ
वो हवाओं के साथ
झूमता नहीं था
शक्ति विहीन था
जिस ओर हवाएं ले जातीं
उसी ओर मुड जाता
मुसाफिरों और पंछियों से
क्या कह सकता था वो
पंछियों को आशियाँ देता
मुसाफिरों को छाँव
हवाओं  के साथ झूमता हुआ
बहुत टूटा हुआ था अन्दर से

वो दरख़्त

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January 31st, 2013 by bkbirla

Obituary – Mala Mausi Ji

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1986. That is when we shifted from a small city Fatehgarh to Lucknow. I remember the first day. The roads looked so big. And then seven of us ( 5 siblings and parents ) reach this nice looking house in Lucknow. We had rented out the first floor. A graceful lady attired in a Saree and always smiling was welcoming us. She was aunty in first few days but then in UP the tenant and landlord relations are not the usual relations. As time grew we realized more common things between us and you graciously transformed to Mala Mausi ji. And then as time went along I realized as a young kid that you and my mother developed a nice relationship. I got admission in St Thomas in class 8th although I had already completed that class just because I came from a small town and I could not speak English properly. And then you kept accompanying my mother to school to convince my principal that I was not as stupid as he thought me to be. And your effort did work out as I got a double promotion.

Lot of other sweet memories. Mala Mausi made one of the best khichdi you can eat. Lot of onion and garlic. How we used to wait for our next opportunity to get a chance to eat it. And then I used to play cricket, lot of times alone, and sometimes even when you had a severe headache. You will scold me, but with lot of love and affection mixed in it. And then one day when you told me to stop playing when you had headache I told you that your home is like a Tabla. How many times have we discussed and laughed over that.

Another memory I will always cherish is when me and my brother were preparing for engineering. We used to have rough papers in which we will solve math/physics questions and then make aeroplanes and they will be all over the lawn. I never remember you scolding us for that. Maybe you knew that we were working very hard.

And then approximately 3-4 years back, I was in Lucknow for a marriage and I decided to surprise for you and found you smiling and welcoming me to your home. And then just like a kid I asked you to make a khichdi for me and you did make it in a jiffy. It was after ages I was eating khichdi made by you and loved it. And then you told me with so much excitement that you had learnt about stock trading.

It is such a loss to lose you. Still can’t believe that you are no more. Life can be so cruel at times. It takes away people in the most unexpected ways. All I can say is that I loved you and you did make a difference to my life. And the blue sweater you knit for me is a memory I will cherish all my life.

Remembering you always.

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December 30th, 2012 by bkbirla

शैतान हैं हम हैवान हैं हम

I know today is the last day of this year. I know that new year is celebration time for many. But then this year ends on a note which calls for so much of introspection as a society and also as a person for each one of us. We can blame it on politicians or police but deep within all of us know we are also responsible somewhere for it that we create a society which can be so brutal at times that life becomes worse then our worst dreams. When each one of us transforms ourselves, we create a better society.

क्या मुल्क हैं हम,
क्या क़ौम हैं हम
टूटे फूटे
इंसान हैं हम,
मूँह से खून
टपकता है
शैतान हैं हम
हैवान हैं हम

कहते हैं देवी
नारी को
ये नाटक
बहुत पुराना है
हर एक नज़र
लेकिन अपनी
वहशी भी है
और ज़ालिम भी
शैतान हैं हम
हैवान हैं हम

बुर्क़ा पर्दा
और सती
नारी के हिस्से ही
क्यूँ आया
ढकने और जलाने से
किस का रुतबा
है बढ़ पाया
बहुरुपीए हैं
बेदर्द हैं हम
बिन बुनियाद के
मकान हैं हम
शैतान हैं हम
हैवान हैं हम

कब तक
इस दोजख दुनिया मैं
खेलेंगे हम
इंसानी जिस्मों से
कब तक
अस्मत के सौदागर
घूमेंगे आज़ाद
परिंदों से
तब तक
शर्मिंदा हो कर एक कवि
ये सब को याद दिलाएगा
क्या मुल्क हैं हम,
क्या क़ौम हैं हम
टूटे फूटे
इंसान हैं हम,
मूँह से खून
टपकता है
शैतान हैं हम
हैवान हैं हम
- Birla

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December 18th, 2012 by bkbirla

Poem dedicated to Delhi rape victim and many more

I dedicate this to Delhi rape victim and many more who suffer silently.

वो सहमी हुई होगी
वो टूटी हुई होगी
जब एक दरिंदे ने
अपने आवेश मैं
एक नापाक कदम
उस की ओर बढ़ाया होगा
इंसानियत को उस समय
जाने क्या क्या याद आया होगा
क्या सदियों से
रूढ़िवाद से लिपटे समाज को
उस चीख का दर्द
समझ आया होगा
दरिंदे तो फिर भी
आख़िर दरिंदे हैं
पर सफ़ेदपोश लोगों के भी
ये कैसे गोरखधंधे हैं
कभी नूडल्स को और
कभी मोबाइल को
देखते नहीं कभी अपनी
दिल के मैल को
ये किस ओर
हमारा समाज अग्रसर है
इंसान हैं डरे हुए
और दरिंदों को
ना किसी का डर है
पीड़ा देने वाले
पीड़ित पे इल्ज़ाम लगाते हैं
और निष्ठुर शहरी लोग
परिवार के बहाने से
सब देख के चुप रह जाते हैं
ज़्यादा नहीं कहता ये कवि
बस इतना ही अनुरोध है
अपने बच्चों को बस इतना सिखा देना
किसी भी व्यक्ति को
चाहे वो पुरुष हो या नारी
कभी वस्तु की तरह ना समझो
क्यूँ कि टूटे हुए दिल तो फिर भी जुड़ जाते हैं
पर टूटा हुआ आत्म सम्मान नहीं

- Birla

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November 20th, 2012 by bkbirla

Jab Tak Hai Kaan

Naushad ke sangeet ki mastiyan
OP Nayyar ki mast dhunein
Shankar Jaikishan ki allhad sangeet
SD da ke dil chhone wale geet
Nahin bhooloonga main
Jab tak hai kaan, Jab tak hai kaan

Anu Malik ka shor
Bappi Lahri ke disco geet
Pritam ki churayi hui dhunein
Nadeem-Shravan ka ho ho ho
Nahin maaf karoonga main
Jab tak hai kaan, Jab tak hai kaan
- Birla

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November 8th, 2012 by bkbirla

दीवाली की रात

इस रात ये ज़िंदगी ठिठुरेगी सहम जाएगी
इस रात दीवाली हम से ना मनाई जाएगी

कुछ अरसे से रौशनी हम से नाराज़ रही
कुछ अरसे से मध्यम ज़िंदगी की आवाज़ रही
इस रात दिल की लौ सुबक सुबक के सो जाएगी
इस रात दीवाली हम से ना मनाई जाएगी

लाशों के साए उभरते हैं खून की नदियों से
इंसान का दुश्मन बना है इंसान ही सदियों से
इस रात जाने कितनी ज़िंदगियाँ अधूरी ही खो जाएँगी
इस रात दीवाली हम से ना मनाई जाएगी

ये पटाखों की आवाज़ें ये रोशनी से भरे दिए
अंधेरे दिल के गहराई मैं धुआँ सा भर दिए
आज दिल की तन्हाई दिल को ही कैसे समझाएगी
इस रात दीवाली हम से ना मनाई जाएगी

एक बच्चा भूखे पेट शहर की रोशनियों मैं सो जाएगा
एक बच्चा मीठे की दुकान देख कर ललचाएगा
अमीरों के घर की रोशनी कब ग़रीबों का घर चमकाएगी
इस रात दीवाली हम से ना मनाई जाएगी

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October 29th, 2012 by bkbirla

Windows 8 Review : Day One

So I decided to take the plunge. Bought a brand new shining version of Windows 8. The 2GB download took some time but got over post lunch today and I decided to test ride it. Here are my experiences with various aspects. Remember this is day one and I am not too fond of reading tutorials so I might not have figured out everything.

 

The Install

I think it took approx. 2 hrs. I choose the option of retaining my settings and apps. Maybe I should not have done that but anyways I thought it was taking too long. One good thing of that time was that I was able to call some friends and talk to them during that time. Overall the process was smooth and I just had to uninstall some Bluetooth software for compatibility. Everything else just worked.

The UI

Ok there is no start button and you start with some tiles. But that is OK. I guess mobile devices have already got us used to different ways of interacting with our machines. BTW I use Android not Windows. I did get used to it in some time and ya did figure out how to see all apps after some mouse moving. Since the other apps look pretty much the same, did not need much time to pick up things.

 

The Browser

So we do have a new IE which does look different. Overall I am loving the new interface. Like the fact that it occupies the whole window. Like the concept of private tabs as it enables me to login to another adwords account. The right clicks have changed but that is OK. Sometimes it takes some effort to figure out where to right click but that is ok. Speed is fine as long as you don’t have too many tabs. My usual number of tabs is 10-15 which includes 2 Gmails, FB, Hootsuite, Analytics and Adwords. It becomes sluggish when I added youtube also. When a single window hangs, all go down. And then I found the most irritating bug. I use an internal tool which uses HTTP auth and my browser just refuses to remember the user id/password here. I am sure MS will fix it but annoying for me at this point.

 

Social Hub

I did all my social accounts but still not sure if I will use it much. I did see that it did not have a simple way to update multiple accounts which is almost a basic need for me now. I use Seesmic or Hootsuite for that. Yet to find much use but time will tell if this is usable. I am a heavy social media user so this better be good to make me migrate.

 

The Performance

So far so good. This was one of the main reason why I migrated from Win 7. Looks fine as of now but I won’t jump to conclusions at this point. Will cover this more in my next review.

 

Moral of the Story

I am OK right now. Not very excited but not disappointed either. I will write another review in few days. So stay tuned…

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October 9th, 2012 by bkbirla

Why lead a life when you can live a dream

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Early morning, or maybe I should call it late night, woke up after just 1.5 hrs of sleep. The usual fight with alarm clock ended with a shock that it was already 4:30. Time to rush towards the airport. I love these early morning drives to airport, there is no traffic on the road and you can enjoy the music and cool air. But then I had thoughts about how the day is going to unfold. I was trying to divert my mind and the thought which flashed through my mind is what the title of this post is. Is there a way we can live a dream instead of leading a life. I don’t remember the context of this but the thought refused to go till I reached the airport where the nice Masala dosa took over the thought process.

 

Little did I know that the day will unfold into a dream. We were organizing the BBG meetup in an old age home in Mumbai. This was a different type of experience. Falguni, Mangla and Sanjeev had been working to make this reality for a long time. The idea was to do a BBG meetup in an old age home and see if we could bring happiness to people there. The challenge was that will our format work with the seniors and will they sit through a 3-4 hour program.

As the program unfolded we could see the spark coming through everybody’s eyes. A little bit of dance on a song was instrumental in helping the audience to loosen up. The hall was full and we had to ask the younger folks to move to back side of the hall so that senior folks could get closer to stage. The music kept unfolding on the stage and the audience kept growing in numbers and excitement. Everybody was singing and  clapping together as songs kept on moving from melodious to peppy back and forth.

 

There were three scenes which touched all of us so much that I could see tears in everybody’s eyes, including mine. The first scene was when I saw seniors dancing in wheel chairs. The spirit was irrepressible here.

The second scene was when the audience decided to give a standing ovation after one of the song. The entire hall stood to thank the performer but I could see one frail looking lady, in a light blue dress, probably in her ninties, struggling to stand up. I went up to her and told her that it is fine if she does not stand up but her trembling hands reflected her resolve and spirit. She did get up after a valiant effort.

The third scene was when one of the trustees of the old age home and said that today they have seen God in the form of all of us who brought happiness to all of us via music. It was such a touching expression of love that all of us had our eyes wet.

 

I usually thank everybody who help us organize these meetups but this time I will not do that for sure. All of us who were involved in organizing this have to thank our life that it gave us an opportunity to bring happiness to so many people, even if it was for an evening. I am sure it will linger on in their minds as well as ours. Happiness is precious and even more precious when you are able to give it to others.

 

See it in pictures here - https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.434754046571365.96512.111281795585260&type=1

 

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